When the going gets tough this stutter-stepper gets more than I deserve, a gentle push, a leg-up to a new awareness, giant steps of help most needed.
On Friday, Mark drove nine hours to get here so he could spend nine more hours driving Miss Daisy (moi) to look at real estate. He knows the city, my budget, my temperament and my tangent jumping mind. His notebook was filled with possibilities by zip code. At 2:00, Saturday, he redid the nine-hour trip back to his home. He actually helped me find two perfect houses: the one I now live in and another about 15 minutes from this home.
My current home is perfect in every way— except for long-term old person independence which will be an issue in the unforeseeable future. The 15 minute trip takes me to a place where that old person independence would be stretched a bit, give me more years with less upkeep.
One of my major stutters is getting ready for an auction spelled with an ‘o’ as in overwhelming. With his usual calm, Chris laid out a plan so perfect in simplicity, a reality check for me that defined doable.
During all my self-imposed drama, I knew I could call neighbors Steve/Lisa and Dave/Laurie. They would talk me down from uncertainty about 101 property and maintenance issues.
Bob’s voice lingers. “We don’t need to bother people. We can handle this together, by ourselves.” Right–when there was a ‘we’. I am inching closer to those phone calls.
On Wednesday, Chris gave me Cub Cadet Lesson 101 and I cut half of the 2.34 acres without damaging anything but my hearing. Duh. Ear plugs? Ear muffs? Next time.
Well, to tell the truth, my mowing might have been less than perfect, better described as ragged. A very few days after I mowed, I decided on a short escape-from-reality-fake-errand, one of those times when getting away was mandatory. Returning, I drove up the long driveway. A red mower flashed behind one of the sheds. Wait a minute–my mower is yellow and I’m not on it.
Brian, another neighbor, handled the grass to crisp, clean perfection. Speechless. I was speechless. He just did it. Brian used his Sunday afternoon to mow this place in addition to his own multi-acres.
Indeed, with my family and my neighbors, this house is close to perfect.
I want to be independent, to depend on resources that I muster, relying on myself by doing, or by compensating for the labor of others. It is tough, but after a brief hiatus from reality, I am going again. And this new chapter of going is definitely not because I am tough. Rather it is because I am surrounded by walls of strength.