Outside the glass, moonlight covers the neglected yard with a beautiful look of snow sprinkle. Doe and yearling stir near the giant Halloween tree, a huge Walnut that has gifted the squirrels with years of stash.
Snug in an afghan, alone, I watch for the sun to change that snow look to the sparkle of early morning. Toys and books cover most horizontal surfaces, markers of the joy of grandchildren. Albums opened beside me evidence years of family time, reminders of our passages as we came to this now.
This now is a quirk, a trick of time, a fixed thing but lost in a vastness that won’t give up its secrets. Now is a month used up in a flash but seeming to go on and on— right into the now of forever.
At 3:32 this November 21, I awoke staggered with all that is mine, my very own and very personal joy, sadness, grief, comfort and my tomorrows built on this now.
My family, my adult children, their spouses and my grandchildren closed ranks protecting me with a fortress of their love, concern and their physical labor handling the details of this passage.
Friends reached across years and miles defining friendship with words and gestures of gentle comfort, the safety of our history together.
Enough. I have enough of what handles the comfort of the body; work, warmth, food, safety, books, places to walk, a to-do list that marks both accomplished tasks and the beat of time.
Abundance. I have quoted Dave Ramsey’s, “Better than I deserve” when asked that rhetorical standard, “How are you?” And I am. So blessed, so much better than I deserve in the abundance of family and friends.
Thanksgiving marks this amazing gift that is my life.